Monday, December 2, 2013

i finally got up the courage...


i finally got up the courage to put up Baby J's hand/footprint. we do one for all the kids that come through our home, so we have a reminder of them with us always.


it's just about two months since baby j left our family. i still cry at the mention of his name. i'm not sure if thats normal. my kids are still hurting and that hurts my heart.

we received a drawing from him via his therapist. i was half expecting it to tell me how much he was mad at me, but alas it was just his name written 33 times.

i miss him. i dont know when it will stop.




10 comments:

  1. My heart feels for you and your 'ohana....i cant even imagine...but time has its way! Just time! Love u guys! Xoxo

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  2. I hurt for you. I would still be crying.

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  3. It's normal. I want to cry just thinking about you crying. Sending love and prayers your way.

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  4. Big hugs from the ocean and back!

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  5. I know that it hurts, but I want to thank you for giving our most defenseless kids a safe place to stay, even if only for a little while. Our world needs more people like you in it!

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  6. So identify with you even though we ended up adopting our only foster placement thus far. I often wondered how I would survive if he left our home.

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  7. So identify with you even though we ended up adopting our only foster placement thus far. I often wondered how I would survive if he left our home.

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  8. That's normal to grieve!! Fostering is hard. God bless you for hanging in there. Blessings - another from another fostermom in the trenches.angela

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  9. I know it hurts, but you should feel pride in your grief. That you feel so bad now is a sign that Baby J got all the love he needed while he stayed with you. My wife and I know how you feel, all too often. But we keep saying yes everytime the phone rings! hang in there!

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  10. I'm so sorry for your pain. I'm thinking about you today and praying for you.

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