Monday, October 7, 2013

One of the most difficult days... {Hawaii Foster Parent Blog}

on this day, one of the most difficult days i will face, i am removing all fear, and i am breathing Him in.

You can't see it from where you're sitting, but my heart is broken. There is an ache I have never felt before.

We said  goodbye to our foster son of 4 years.

The "you can't save them all " pill Is really hard to swallow. But in order for me to continue in this journey of foster care, I need to believe that the unconditional love I gave him for the first four years of his life will make a difference one day.

We begin a journey of healing.


22 comments:

  1. oh my friend... how my heart aches for you... and for everything you and your beautiful family are enduring. bless you and prayers for you on your journey of healing. HIS plan is great... greater than any of us can imagine... and in the end... it will all make sense. big hugs.

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    1. Mahalo Twiggee78! thanks for reminding me that His plan is great...its so hard to remember sometimes.

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  2. Sending hugs and love. My heart is broken for all of you. Know that we are holding you in ou hearts.

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    1. Mahalo Denise and Family! we feel your love all the way over here!

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  3. I am PRAYING!!! No words........but GOD. We will continue to lift your family up to HIM!!!

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    1. Prayer is all we need. Thank you friend.

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  4. I am so sorry. My heart and prayers are with you.

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  5. I hate when people tell me that 'His plans are bigger than ours' but that's exactly what I'll tell you because I have experienced it 1st hand. God has Baby J in the palm of His hand. He loves him MORE than you could...EVER!! Praying for your mama's heart to find peace in letting him go. Praying for that sweet baby to transition to his new surroundings. xoxox

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    1. haha i hate when i HAVE to tell my friends that too! but its so true. thank you so much for your friendship. day by day it will get easier, right?

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  6. 4 years... How could they do that to him? the system is so broken. I am so sorry. Prayers for him tonight and for you.

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    1. very broken. and everyone wants to blame everyone...no responsibility. Thank you for your prayers!

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  7. I always have people tell me that they can't foster because they couldn't send the children back. I tell them that I don't do it for me, I do it for the children. The children deserve to know stability and love even if it is not forever. You have given him that. Praying for your healing heart.

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    1. he did deserve it. and i'd endure the heartache again just to love him. i know he will carry that love with him forever.

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  8. There is no doubt in my mind you changed his life. I only had savannah for 16 months and she is a changed little girl because of it.

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    1. thats what i hope and pray for. that he remembers all the good.

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  9. The grief of foster parents is very real & just as gut-wrenching as any loss. Allow yourself to grieve. Four years is a long time to be a parent of a child. Lifting you up in prayer that your Heavenly Father wraps His arms around you and comforts you through this.

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    1. thanks for lifting us up always! this have definitely been one of the most trying times in our family.

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  10. This is very belated comment...sorry...and I'm very sorry that you had to let him go..very sad.

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