Wednesday, October 16, 2013

it's been a week since...



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It's been a week since baby j left us.

our family escaped reality and hid at a resort for a few days. it was just what we needed. what i didnt need was to come back to reality.

i miss him. i do. but my heartache doesn't come so much from missing him, it comes from not knowing if he's safe, loved, and fed.

my friends son goes to the same school as him. i asked her to spy on him for me today, just to tell me he's ok.

he didnt show up this morning, which brought all kinds of fears in my mind.

it's very hard to let go. it's very hard to not feel responsible.





10 comments:

  1. My heart aches for you and your family. I pray that God will continue to keep you very close to Him and protect you. I am also praying for Joshua's safety and praying that God's plan will lead him back to your family.

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    1. i appreciate your words. Thank you for praying for him.

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  2. Chills and some tear drops; ( so sorry Sonya for you and the Family you're such a wonderful person♥ reading you're blog brought back Memories to when my mom took me away from whom I thought was my mom and dad and know I'm 33 and I still ask that one question( Why) why did you take me from the ones that loved me to pieces. All the love and good time's yall gave him will never be forgotten.. my prayers go out to you and the family♥ I love you Sonya your a strong person love all ways your cousin lysha♥

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    1. elysha. i can only imagine what a traumatizing time that was for you. i am so proud of how strong you are and what a great mother you have come to be. Love you!

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  3. I would be freaking out. I'm so sorry for you.

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    1. i know...my mind IS freaking out. not good.

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  4. I am so sorry. I know this was an incredible loss for you. Please know that you did everything you could and everything good in that child is from you and your family. God will protect him and see to it that he is ok and taken care of. I will pray for him and your family.

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  5. Oh no! I hope he is OK and treating him well and loving him. I just have to pray for him. I'm also praying for you. Take care.

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    1. thanks for keep us in your prayers. baby j is well and in a good home. we learning to accept gods plan...sometimes it's hard to do without question.

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