Wednesday, October 16, 2013
It's been a week since baby j left us.
our family escaped reality and hid at a resort for a few days. it was just what we needed. what i didnt need was to come back to reality.
i miss him. i do. but my heartache doesn't come so much from missing him, it comes from not knowing if he's safe, loved, and fed.
my friends son goes to the same school as him. i asked her to spy on him for me today, just to tell me he's ok.
he didnt show up this morning, which brought all kinds of fears in my mind.
it's very hard to let go. it's very hard to not feel responsible.