Tuesday, October 30, 2012

i dont have much...

i dont have much to say. my head is still trying to figure out what just happened. but i did feel like i owed you all an update. the bottom line is we lost. the judge ruled in her favor and the process for reunification will begin in february. 

i am not so eloquent with all this anger, but my husband says it perfectly below....

The judge did not rule in our favor but it is not his favor we seek. My God works all things for the Good. I put my hope in the God of Miracles. I claim my son on his name. #FaithOverFear

Monday, October 29, 2012

baby j's birth mom will...

baby j's birth mom will testify in court today.  although her testimony will end the trial, our lawyer believes that the judge will not make a ruling today. they believe he will provide his judgement in writing, so that means we'll have to wait a week or so for his ruling.

a few weeks ago a speaker at our church made everyone repeat this sentence...

it was kinda hard for me to repeat.
god is good. yes. thats simple.

if i lose baby j will god still be good?
will god still be good at all times?
is god still good through tears? heartache? brokeness? 

i can say clearly. GOD IS GOOD AT ALL TIMES. no matter what happens today. my god had a plan all along. i didn't know it, but he has already equipped me for whatever we will hear.

Friday, October 26, 2012

my kinda way to...

my kinda way to eat pumpkin seeds.

a dash of garlic powder
a dash of fukikake 
(seaweed, salt, sesame seeds, sugar)
baked...extra crispy

try it.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Monday, October 1, 2012

i wanted to thank...

i wanted to thank everyone for the thoughts, prayers and love for stormie. waiting for a diagnosis is over. two weeks ago we had our suspicions confirmed. Autism. Aspergers. Auditory Processing Disorder. and her pre-existing Sensory Processing Disorder.

the funny thing is i thought i loved this girl with my whole heart but nothing can compare to the love i have for her right now.