sometimes i forget that...
sometimes i forget that Baby J is not mine.
i catch myself falling in love with him every time i hold him.
i love him and hug him and squeeze him.
then i get mad at myself for falling in love with him all over again.
it is in times like these, i ask god for less of me and more of him in this mission field he has called us to...foster care.
it is in times like these, i ask god for less of me and more of him in this mission field he has called us to...foster care.
Baby J. i can't wait to love you forever.
i understand, he is well worth loving that way though...no matter what the future holds
ReplyDeleteI feel lucky that I have the opportunity to forget there are children and parents out there that aren't assured of their place. I can't imagine how hard it must be a mother to a sweet kid and not fall head over heels all the time. It takes a special kind of mother and a special kind of kid and I hope the love just keeps getting better. I really look up to you!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you both found each other, so that you can give him the love he deserves & that you in turn can fall in love all over again...and again. :)
ReplyDeleteawe this post breaks my heart
ReplyDeleteI think God wants you to love baby J with your entire heart. Don't hold anything back, even if its brief. Baby J needs to see what love from a parent looks like
xoxo
You have a lot of love in your heart mama.
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing, because I am too selfish. I could never love and let go. No way! I'm getting worked up just thinking about it.
ReplyDeleteI cannot imagine what that would be like mama! :( Praying that one day Baby J can be fully yours!
ReplyDeleteLoving those kids is so easy. Even if it's just for a season.
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