Thursday, March 31, 2011

it was bound to happen...


it was bound to happen. i just wish it didnt happen on my watch. i wish it happened on mikes so i could blame him, and i could remain perfect parent.

my daughter gave 1/4 of her left side of hair a bob.

it was my fault. we were working on her cutting skills...i left for 23.5 seconds to put baby j in his crib, and when i returned there were blond strands leading to behind the couch. it was there i found the guilty party.

she was more freaked out that now she wasn't Rapunzel anymore.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

no matter how many times...


no matter how many times i open these bastard Pillsbury rolls - it still scares the CRAP out of me.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Slice of Life - I Heart Faces

The challenge this week at I heart Faces is - SLICE OF LIFE! Check out their site to see all the great entries!

here is my princess, taking a slice of life to nap on a float tube during our family vacation last week. this is the life.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

i have no patience...


i have no patience when it comes to waiting for kaleb to use the restroom.

will you please hurry up and squeeze something out?

i really am a horrible mother.

Monday, March 21, 2011

when we were young...


when we were young, our family vacations consisted of traveling 26 miles to waikiki. they may not have been the 4 star hotels on the strip, but my family was there and we had free rein to jump on the beds. thats really what mattered.
our family had the great opportunity to stay at the koolina beach club for a few days. even though it's 10 minutes from home, it really is 100 million miles from reality. i had so much fun because my kids had fun. in fact my daughter stated she would not be returning to the old house, she liked the new one. i'll miss you days of swimming, maid service, and lava flow drinking...virgin of course....


Monday, March 14, 2011

when my baby brother...


when my baby brother was born, i was 17 years old. i was mommy #2. i'd feed him, rock him to sleep, and tell him how perfect he was.
in my mind he's a 3 year old with long curls.
a 3 year old that uses words i have to look up in the dictionary.
a 3 year old that asks for my credit card number to support his lego habit.
now i'm in the neighborhood of 30's. somehow he grew up when i wasn't looking. he's off to the prom. if he didnt have a gang of friends around, i may have shed a tear. maybe i shed one in my car, but i'll never tell.
i love you brother.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

i heart faces - Sun Flare

This week's challenge at I Heart Faces is Sun Flare! Be sure to check out their site for all entries!

This is a photo of my daughter and husband...sharing a magic kiss.

Friday, March 11, 2011

a few minutes ago...

a few minutes ago we (hawaii) was placed under a Tsunami Warning...beaches and flood zones are not being evacuated. This is a result of the 8.9 earthquake in Japan.
We live at the top of a pretty big hill, so we are safe.
The first Tsunami wave is expected to hawaii at 3AM. Please keep my state in your prayers...also pray for friends in Japan.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

the saddest part of...


the saddest part of foster care is realizing you can't save them all.

for me it really is sad. it makes my heart hurt. it makes me question - everything.

i met this beautiful baby girl when she was born a few months ago. she is the foster daughter of a friend. she received a serious diagnosis this week. one that has her life ending within 2 years.

the reality is my family is not in the position to adopt her. the reality is finding a family to adopt her will be BEYOND difficult. the reality is she will die family-less.

family-less. the worst way to live. that breaks my heart. that brings tears to my eyes. family-less. the worst way to die.

i'm trying to figure out why god has placed her in my life. why i can't stop thinking of her big brown eyes? what is my purpose in her life?

i'm praying for her. wont you join me?

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

this was supposed to be...


this was supposed to be a wordless wednesday entry....but the lotus blossom is very special to me and i had to say something about it!

i love how it's grown in muddy water. aren't all the beautiful things grown in rough conditions? diamonds...me....lotus blossoms....you...

when times get muddy and unclear - keep persevering. something beautiful is about to bloom.


Monday, March 7, 2011

some people dont like...

some people don't like to admit their jealous. i have no problem saying it....see i just said it - I'M JEALOUS.

Mike and i have taken a special interest in watching The Locator, mostly because of the adopted children who are seeking their biological parents. we know one day this conversation will come up in our home. and the truth is - as much as i wanna celebrate her being adopted, i dont wanna be reminded of the fact that she has another mother.

adoptive moms - please dont judge me. just let me get this off my chest.

i can already feel my heart hurting...what if my kids like their birthparents better? what if their funner? prettier? richer? smarter? what if they cook better? what if they ARE better? i'm just asking. and i'm asking out loud. which i should probably stop.

the truth is. i wanna be her only mother. her number 1. the truth is i'm fearful.

i got a nice kick in the but from Courtney at Storing Up Treasures...thanks for reminding me - it's not about me.

"Your kids are always going to love their birthparents. Always. I hope that instead of being hurt over it, you can give them the freedom to express this love. Give them space to feel their pain. Give them understanding and compassion. They need to know you will love them no matter what and that you will be their safe person to let it all out with. They need to know you aren't going to be hurt and that what they are feeling is normal. Pray for them. And direct them to the healer of all healers. Don't beat yourself up. Don't worry that there is something wrong. The pain they are experiencing is beyond anything you or I could ever begin to comprehend. Ever. But that doesn't mean that we can't love them through it."

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

while the rest of the...



while the rest of the free world is enjoying GREEN EGGS AND HAM, here in Hawaii we celebrate with Green Eggs and Spam.
"Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”
Happy Birthday Dr. Seuss!!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

anything BUTT a face...


anything but a face is the theme for this week's challenge at i heart faces. i've tweaked it a little and renamed it *anything BUTT a face*

kaleb is potty training right now. yesterday he asked if he pee'd in his pants would jesus be mad....hhhmmmm. is that a trick question? of course jesus is gonna be mad...ggggaaaahhhhh


Here is my entry into this weeks challenge. enjoy peeps.