Thursday, February 3, 2011

when i became pregnant... {hawaii foster care blog}


when i became pregnant with kaleb, i was skeptical that god only ALLOWED me to get pregnant because he was planning on taking stormie away from me. stormie was not legally ours at the time. i felt my emotions teetering on happiness and sadness. it was especially difficult after giving birth and talking myself out of the hole of post-partum that traps many women.

my god gave me kaleb and stormie - for keeps.

now that i'm pregnant again, i got scared again. that god was allowing me to get pregnant so he can remove baby j. that was just for a second, then i remembered that god already showed me who is was. a god of miracles. i started breathing again. trusting in him. and remembering that ALL these kids are HIS first and mine second.

14 comments:

  1. Congratulations! Hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months! :) Yes, God is a great God of miracles beyond our human imagination! He always does things at the precise time and provides 100% of the time, we just need to wait on Him. :) Again, congratulations that is awesome news!

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  2. That is sooo hard....trusting when it comes to such precious lives....praying with you!

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  3. You are gonna get to keep them all!

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  4. I have honestly had that same fear of getting pregnant miraculously after 5 years of infertility all to loose my babys we are fighting to keep! But like you I continue to realize that no matter what happens God is in control and he has a much bigger plan than our human minds can even begin to understand! I have only just started following you-but after what I have read on your posts I am SO happy for you!!! Congratulations to your continuously growing family!!

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  5. Teared up when I read this sister. It's so true and youre a blessing just for reminding all us parents:)

    Rebekah Antoine

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  6. EVERYONE. i can't thank you enough for your words and feedback. this blog is serious the best and CHEAPEST therapy.

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  7. What a fantastic testimony of your faith! Our God is good!

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  8. i always think the same way. i feel like the worst WILL happen. it is driving me crazy lately but someday i will learn.

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  9. Sonya, I've been following your blog but I have just fallen behind in commenting. Congratulations, I'm so happy for you and I can't believe that you're so far along before you found out you were pregnant. You could be on that tv show I always watch. And my heart goes out to you that you even have to carry the fear of losing baby j. you are an extraordinary mom and I think God is set on filling your house to the brim.

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  10. woah you are pregnant. This is the best news of the day! May you be able to replenish and multiply and adopt as many babies as you want!

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