Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
would it be wrong to give baby j's judge a kiss?
she is awesome. bottom line - no unsupervised visits till she says so.
she needs birth mom to start treatment and test negative! the judge also needs to see that she can care for the new (addicted) baby she just had.
in the judges words *I am not convinced it's in baby j's best interest to be removed from a happy, healthy placement. you, (birth mother) just need to make one wrong move and we'll move to terminate rights.*
thank god for giving us the same judge! i am so grateful.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
This week at i heart faces the weekly challenge is to submit your best phone photo. this photo certainly is not my best, but it is my favorite.
Kaleb and i go on a date to Jamba Juice or Starbucks every tuesday after his class. i love our alone time.
this photo was taken on an iphone with the hipstamatic app.
Friday, February 18, 2011
i have missed fix it friday for the last two weeks and wanted to jump back on the train! i love this exercise in editing! Go check out i heart faces for more entries!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
mike and i watched a DVD called Children Underground. it's one of those movies that reminds you there is still so much that needs to be done in the world. there are still so many children that need a home. there are still so many people lost and hurting. searching.
it reminded me of an article i read. when i first read this quote i wanted to write a blog about it.
"Sometimes I would like to ask God why He allows poverty, suffering, and injustice when He could do something about it.”
“Well, why don’t you ask Him?”
“Because I’m afraid He would ask me the same question.”
(Anonymous) -a quote from A Hole in the Gospel, by Richard Stearn, President of World Vision.
but now that it's here...i really have nothing to say...your either gonna ask god the question or not. having the answer is worse than not knowing, because then you have to do something about it.
Monday, February 14, 2011
this man is my valentine.
this man is the best dad to all the children that call this home.
this man is the best husband when i want control of the remote.
this man is an amazing worship leader.
this man is the worst teller of lies.
this man is the best at reminding me that i am worth every cent.
i love you handsome. and so do the crazies - in their own way.
Friday, February 11, 2011
could my daughter really be crushing by 4? if i remember correctly, when i was 4 boys still had cooties.
who is her crush? none other than Justin Bieber.
she requests his song in the car. and pretends to talk to him on the phone. at bed time she chose to pray for her princess shoes, but her daddy insisted she pray for a human. and she chose bieber.
I guess if his movie is successful he has her to thank. and god.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
today, stormie noticed someones skin color. it was the first time ever. or at least the first time she said it out loud.
we were watching doogie, and raymond (the orderly) entered the room.
stormie *mommy. he's brown.*
me *mommy is brown*
stormie *no, mommy is pink and stormie is yellow*
me *but our color doesn't matter right? we still love everyone*
stormie *yeah. mommy i wanna be brown too*
i'm sad that she notices our color. for the obvious reason, but also because that means she's growing up and will soon realize that she wasnt made by me. then comes all the questions and feelings associated with that.
only god will be able to equip me with the right words and answers. and of course you all - my dear blogger friends.
when was the first time your children noticed color?
Monday, February 7, 2011
my niece kelsea is seriously beautiful.
when she was younger (and we were kidless) we were together always. but now she's bigger and we're not so cool to hang with.
she has the kindest heart, brightest smile, and knows the all the secrets to keep her uncle wrapped around her finger.
i know she reads my blog and i thought she should know we are so proud of her and love her more than all the stars in the sky.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
when i became pregnant with kaleb, i was skeptical that god only ALLOWED me to get pregnant because he was planning on taking stormie away from me. stormie was not legally ours at the time. i felt my emotions teetering on happiness and sadness. it was especially difficult after giving birth and talking myself out of the hole of post-partum that traps many women.
my god gave me kaleb and stormie - for keeps.
now that i'm pregnant again, i got scared again. that god was allowing me to get pregnant so he can remove baby j. that was just for a second, then i remembered that god already showed me who is was. a god of miracles. i started breathing again. trusting in him. and remembering that ALL these kids are HIS first and mine second.