Wednesday, March 31, 2010

i have just a tiny... {hawaii family blog}

i have just a tiny secret. i have a tatoo. so it may not be a total secret since most of you already know. BUT my daughter (3) just discovered it.

stormie: mommy, what's that coloring?

me: what coloring?

stormie: dat one? (as she tries to scrape it off my skin)

me: it's crayon

stormie: daddy, me want coloring on leg?

daddy: no stormie

stormie: coloring only on paper?

daddy: yes stormie, only on paper.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

a fellow foster mom... {hawaii foster care blogger}

a fellow foster mom of mine is in the process of transitioning her foster son to his adopted family. after a year of loving him as her own, the baby will soon leave her. i know her heart is heavy. i know she loves him.

sometimes when i think of my own baby j leaving i can't catch my breath.

this song is so special to me. for 2 years when we thought we'd lose our daughter, mike and i prayed the lyrics to this song daily. every minute. every second. we lived knowing nothing was too impossible for Him. every single time i need peace i listen to this song. it never fails to bring tears to my eyes. it never fails to remind me that He holds me protected.

i hope my friend feels comfort when she hears go on. press play. and close your eyes.

Friday, March 26, 2010

last weekend we went down... {hawaii blog}

last weekend we went down to the US Vets facility in Barbers Point. Our church does a regular outreach there so we joined in to serve food.

It's very strange to me how little our country cares for our vets...they are really a forgotten community.

i love serving people who are so appreciative. Free food, haircuts and clothes...who wouldn't have fun!

"For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in." Matthew 25:35

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

the kids were taking.... {hawaii parenting blogger}

the kids were taking a bath the other day and Stormie referred to her private part as a *triangle* and referred to her brothers parts as a *circle*. i am trying to gather names for private parts. WAIT. let me restate that. Mike and i dont know what to call the kids private parts. does that make sense? When growing up we referred to the male anatomy as a "thing" ha ha. for girls we called it - wait for it - - - - - - "front butt" that. is. hilarious.

what do you call them in your house?
right now i'm leaning towards *private* for girl parts and *peepee* for boy parts.
did i really need a whole blog post towards this? i think so.

Monday, March 22, 2010

today is my daddy's... {hawaii blog}

today is my daddy's birthday. i know he reads my blog so i wanted him to read this.

dad. i love you. i dont tell you enough, but you make sure to tell me all the time. thank you for shaping my heart daily. thank you for cooking for me when i'm sick. thank you for creating us to be servants even when i was mad at you for making me wash cars. thank you for showing unconditional love to my kids. thank you for getting me hooked on q-tips. thank you for walking the walk - not just talking the talk.

i couldn't have asked god to send me a better father.

Happy 29th Birthday. again.

Friday, March 19, 2010

on wednesday i witnessed... {hawaii children blog}

on wednesday i witnessed Baby J taking his first steps. Watching a child learn to walk never gets old. Baby J is still a month away from turning 1 and he's ready to take off. i am so lucky to be able to watch him grow.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

i hate when something... {hawaii adoption blog}

i hate when something reminds you to be a better person. like i know what i should be doing...but god - why am i not doing it then?

I still have contact with the birthmother of my Daughter...she still has supervised visits with baby J...we have a weird relationship. i mean that's the only word that really does it justice. i need her. she needs me. yet we'd prefer if we were in each others lives. sometimes she drives me nuts. really.

i was reading a posting from Justin Taylor - Between Two Worlds called Thinking About - and Loving Birthmothers.

“It is very easy for us to get wrapped up in ourselves, in our own story and to forget that there is a birthmother who is hurting, who is created in the image of God and who wants the best for this child,” he said. “She is not choosing abortion, she is choosing life.”

he pretty much just read my mail. everything. i often forget that she is suffering. i even often forget she is human. with human feelings. i forget what trauma she has experienced. the same trauma that leaves her incapable of raising children.

thanks for the reminder Justin Taylor.

Monday, March 15, 2010

i am so curious to see... {hawaii foster care blog}

i am so curious to see who my kids will turn out to be...i mean sure i want them all to graduate from Stanford as Doctors, but their probably gonna have dreams of their own.

i think Stormie will grow up to be a boss. she hates for people to tell her what to do...i think she will be an artist or have something to do with fashion...she's 100% diva...

I think Kaleb will grow up to be a FireMan - mostly because i am gonna brainwash him to think it was his idea.

i think joshua will grow up to be a LineBacker in the NFL. He LOVES to wrestle and has genetics that will give him the size needed - come to think if will Stormie. can you say *hello blindside*?

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

i am sure there will be... {hawaii foster care blogger}

i am sure there will be some backlash coming my way, as i confess to agreeing with this program, so with that said i welcome ALL thoughts and opinions. i am sure it won't be the last time we disagree on something.

there is a program visiting hawaii right now that pays addicts to get long term birth control instered. and yes. i think it's a great program. Operation Prevention was actually created to prevent children from being born addicted to drugs and/or alcohol. The our daughter was born to an addict mother. a women who has 5 children - all exposed, all removed, all scarred. To see our daughters 6lb body shaking and screaming for drugs - for weeks on end - is an image i will never loose. Our daughter has seen multiple therapist since birth and continues till today. She has challenges and delays that will follow her for the rest of her life. All of our time, money, and love can't remove those factors from her life, but she has been given great coping skills and affection. Unfortunately, not all drug exposed children get the help they need.

drug exposed infants are a preventable problem. i encourage you to take a look at their website. i also encourage you to leave your feedback - even if we dont agree.

Monday, March 8, 2010

it may sound mean... {hawaii parenting blogger}

it may sound mean, but i really dont like coloring with my kids...

why you ask? because their not good at it. it drives me bonkers that they dont color in the lines, they color things any kine color, and they color on top of the nice coloring i did. how dare they. i mean - what are they - 2?

Thursday, March 4, 2010

the other day my friends... {hawaii blogger}

the other day my friends and i got some bad news that a website we love will be closing. HawaiiMomsLikeMe - The website I love and am addicted to will be closing its service to hawaii moms.
As the website would say *it's where hawaii mom's meet* and it's so true! i joined this site about a year and a half ago and it hasn't been the same since. you know why i'm addicted? because the mommies on there know me. they are just like me. tired. stressed. looking for ways to not screw up your children too bad. trying to find the best way to scare the monsters out of the closet. wondering if your fat ever goes back to its original spot after you have a baby. that kinda mama.

This site has helped me be a better me. helped me to be a better parent. wife. friend. activist. foster parent. sister. better me.

I would have never met my friend Kassandra if it wasn't for HawaiiMomsLikeMe. I can't imagine not knowing her and her beautiful family or my many other mommy friends for that matter. isn't she pretty? and yes - i couldn't resist taking a photo of her kids feet...i just love kiddy feet photos...65 year old man feet photos - not so much.

Stormie and i attended our first... {hawaii adoption blog}

Stormie and i attended our first Foster/Adoption Support group with Family Programs Hawaii. They had us do a family activity of making sushi with a few social work students from Japan. Stormie was very into it...and so was her stomach!

The group discussion was about integrating the culture of your foster/adopted child into your own. this is where i have a hard time. Between mike and i, we are Hawaiian, Irish, Filipino, and Hispanic. Stormie and Baby J are Caucasian. Their family is from Mississippi. i dont wanna sound stupid or like i'm making fun of caucasians, but i don't know what i would teach her about them.

She honestly thinks she's a Hawaiian girl, and by all accounts she's right, she was born here, and will be raised here, in a hawaiian family, with Hawaiian values and traditions.

But how do i start to intertwine her roots with ours?

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

this is what i'm making for.... {hawaii family blog}

this is what i am making for dinner tonight
another cool invention...who thinks of this stuff? and how come it's not me. This is a recipe card and it comes with all the spices needed to make the dish! I hate it when you wanna make a recipe - yet you don't wanna buy a whole bottle of lime seed - JUST TO USE ONCE! So thanks to McCormick you'll never have to do that again. These awesome recipe cards come equipped with the spices you need. you just use all of them and keep the recipe card on the back for future use! *i purchased this card at Safeway for an introductory price of $2.29*

Monday, March 1, 2010

thankful in february... {hawaii blog}

thankful in february for...

1. baby j remaining in our home this month

2. margarita's it's a shame i just discovered them

3. healthy children

4. savers shopping spree's with my mom and sister

5. ricky lake for teaching me so much through The Business of Being Born

6. the tsunami for not destroying my island

7. 7:30 bedtime for the 3 and under crew