Thursday, January 28, 2010

on Jan 17th, 2008 my heart was broken.... {hawaii motherhood blog}

on Jan 17th, 2008 my heart was broken, there really is no other way to say it. on Jan 17th 1.5 yr old Cyrus Belt was thrown off a bridge and on to the freeway, by a meth addict. for well over three months every time i drove by the spot i cried. It's funny how i felt immediate guilt about what happened. i felt i could have done something, or didnt do enough. i felt like i could have saved him, not like great white hope save, but SAFE him....keep him safe, shelter him. An incident occurred earlier that day that could have landed him in foster care...he could have been safe. but god had different plans for him. speaking of god. it's really hard to not go straight to the "why did got allow this?" i did. i still dont know why god allowed this to happen...he never told me.

the reason this is on my mind is because the trial is happening right now. every time i see the killer i wonder how is he still here and that innocent child is not. this is when i am sad hawaii doesn't have the death penalty. why are we even wasting our time and money on this trial.

i could never be a lawyer. i dont believe everyone has the right to a fair trial. i think some people should just be beheaded on the spot. that's just me.