Wednesday, December 29, 2010

when i tell you all to do... {hawaii foster care blog}

when i tell you all to do something you really waste no time doing it huh? yesterday i begged you to pray for a miracle and to pray for the judge. and you did.

you people must have some serious connection to god, because he listened. the judge - SHE was amazing. direct. thorough. tuff. she explained she wasnt happy with either side and there were too many unknowns that the state wasn't answering.

her ruling was to come back to court in late February. she went against CPS and ordered NO unsupervised visits because she's not convinced it would be safe.

to god be the glory. and to you my friends. thank you for keeping us sane. encouraged. and prayed for. prayer changes things.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

we are headed to court... {hawaii foster care blog}

we are headed to court this morning. pray for us. hard. real hard.

pray for the judge. pray that he will agree with the guardian ad litem, and deny unsupervised visits. even better - pray he deny's reunification.

pray for a freakin miracle.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

the other morning i read... {hawaii blogger}

the other morning i read kaleb the story of baby jesus being born. later in the morning we were walking around the hood looking at christmas decor. not so cool when the sun is up.
he found some reindeer on the someone's lawn and hopped right on.
he said *'s a donkey and me jesus....YYYYEEEEEHHHHHAAAAWWWWW*

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

after spending over $100,000... {hawaii motherhood blog}

after spending over $100,000 on an education, this is how i spend my days.

just sayin'

Friday, December 17, 2010

FIX IT FRIDAY {hawaii photography blog}

i'm always trying to better my editing skills, and thanks to i heart faces, i can do that weekly with Fix It Friday! stop by their site to see the other great edits!



Thursday, December 16, 2010

i had a fun time this... {hawaii childrens photography}

i had a fun time this weekend playing with Amelia and James. Amelia had a million smiles for me, but james was camera shy! Happy Happy Holidays...


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

the funny thing about god... {hawaii blog}

the funny thing about god is - he hangs around. with all my craziness. madness.
he's still here. with me. in me.
he is still here in my weakness.
he is still here in my doubt.

he is always faithful to me. even when i am faithless.

oh, how he loves me.
oh, how he loves us.

Monday, December 13, 2010

i love taking photos of... {hawaii photography blog}

i love taking photos of children...the trick is trying to get children to like taking photos...

i'm not so good at that.

i did love playing with the Medrano Ohana this weekend. i'm always grateful to them for trusting me with such an important job!

what are your secrets to making kids feel comfortable around the camera?

Friday, December 10, 2010

it's been a year since... {hawaii Blogger}

it's been a year since i wrote my first blog.

74 followers later.

17953 blog hits later.

i can't believe i had that much to say and still do.

so - thank you. thank you countless others that follow along...

thank you for letting me make no sense at all.

thank you for letting me be honest.

thank you for encouraging my passions.

thank you for discouraging my crazy.

i'm grateful.

FIX IT FRIDAY {hawaii photography blog}

Here is my attempt at editing this week. Take the time to check out the other entries at i heart faces!



Thursday, December 9, 2010

my beautiful ballerina... {hawaii parenting blog}

my beautiful ballerina. i think right about here i was threatening to cancel christmas if she didnt smile for me.

happy thursday friends.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

baby j, how did you know... {hawaii foster care blog}

baby j, how did you know i was sad?
i got off the phone and you came and cuddled up
you said *MA!* and gave me a kiss

i got of the phone with your social worker.
she didnt have good news.
they want to give you back to her, in just a few short months.

sure she has a substance abuse problem.
sure she is a sex offender.
sure she has a baby on the way.
sure you've been with me for one year.
sure she has no job.


Monday, December 6, 2010

the time has come... {hawaii motherhood blog}

the time has come when our 3 toddlers have learned to out smart 2 adults. i didnt think it would come so quickly, but once again we have under estimated them

so yesterday was THE longest day in the world. after we got all the kids in the house, my husband and i were unloading the swagger wagon. as we approached the house i heard him asking our 4 year old to open the door. then begging her to open the door. then begging the 3 year old to open the door. the 1 year old was no help.

the kids locked us out. of the house.

our 4 year old eventually began to panic when she realized she didnt know how to get us back in. luckily our kitchen window was open and my hubby popped out the screen.

it could have been a lot worse. i suspect one day it will be.

have you under estimated your crazies?

Friday, December 3, 2010

FIX IT FRIDAY {hawaii photography blog}

i SO missed fix it fridays at i heart faces! LOVE love love their weekly challenges!

Here are my fixes...



Tuesday, November 30, 2010

i was cleaning stormies... {hawaii adoption blog}

i was cleaning stormies room the other day. when i went to make her bed, i lifted her pillow and found this photo of her as a baby, kissing her daddy - under her pillow. as adoptive parents its so important to know that she has the same connection to us as we do to her. and these little nothings give us all the comfort in the world.

Monday, November 29, 2010

i prayed for kaleb for... {hawaii motherhood blog}

i prayed for kaleb for many many years. most times on my knees. i wanted him that badly. i wanted him on my time. but alas. god has his own watch. and runs on his own time. Kaleb came on gods time. the perfect time.
the perfect time came three years ago. the day i birthed a child. the day my faith blossomed. the day my son was born. i love watching this video of him making an entrance a few minutes after being born. happiest birthday to you my boy.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

there are way too many things... {hawaii blog}

there are way too many things that i am grateful for to list. there's my family. the best family. my country. the best country. my moms turkey. the best turkey.

but more than anything i am grateful for my husbands ability to provide for our family. grateful i get to see every waking and learning moments of our children. grateful that i can be a lady of leisure.

grateful that we can bless others because we are blessed.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

baby j's worker was gonna

baby j's worker was gonna make me wait a whole week for some news she needed to share...the thing is - social workers have no clue that we as foster parents are hanging on to every word they say...that you love this child as your own and any little change in the case can send you on a rampage or eating binge.

i called her yesterday and told her i was gonna die if i had to wait till next monday. she thinks i'm kidding. we're clearly not kidding.

baby j's birthmother is testing positive. which made me filled with hope that our case will proceed. the news also filled me with sickness for the unborn baby she is carrying.

thats right her 6th child is on the way.

Monday, November 22, 2010

my son is a freak. {hawaii motherhood blog}

my son is a freak. i was reading and drinking my coffee - when i heard him screaming in the kitchen. he came down stairs and was UNCONSOLABLE. he was sobbing. i tried to calm him down, while figuring out when was wrong.

finally he muttered *my teeth broke* i searched in his mouth and everything was in place. he said *look mama. my teeth broke* just then he held of a grain of old rice he found on the floor.

i was laughing telling him, *son - that is old piece of rice, not your tooth* in less than 1 second his tears dried up and said *oh. sorry.*


Thursday, November 18, 2010

this morning stormie and... {hawaii lifestyle blog}

this morning stormie and i were outside at 6:34am looking at the beautiful sky. she asked why we couldn't see bubba since he lived in heaven...i said we have to be patient and one day we'll see him. she said *uuummm - no. i going ass (ask) jesus. he tell me.*

these photos are from the beautiful sky this morning. untouched. straight out of the camera. god is the greatest artist.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

my oldest child just... {hawaii mommy blogger}

my oldest child just turned 4 years old. that means it's been 4 years since i last brushed my hair. i'm kinda kidding and kinda not...mostly not.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

i heart faces - silhouette {hawaii childrens photography blog}

i love i heart faces. they give photographers of all levels a chance to learn and be challenged. this week challenge theme is silhouette. please stop by their site to look at everyones great submissions.

this photo, taken a year and a half ago, is of my beautiful princess.

Friday, November 12, 2010

2 weeks ago our family, {hawaii family blogger}

2 weeks ago our family lost Batman - our family pet of 10 years. what a special really - he was special. developmental delay special. dont believe me? he was a product of his mother AND brother getting hot and heavy. believe me now? thought so. we all called him Bubba. as a matter of fact it was all of my kids first word - BUBBA! Now my kids say he's in Kevin (heaven).

Bubba - you will be missed. i hope you get all the scooby snacks you want and get a replacement nut (he only had one). and please dont embarrass the family by asking jesus to scratch your butt. just sayin'

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

although stormie may not... {hawaii adoption blog}

although stormie may not have my DNA we are very much alike, more than i like to take credit for. maybe that's why we fight so much.

1. when we get hurt (physically), we get angry. we hate being consoled.

2. we hate pickles

3. if we're not GREAT at something, we dont want anything to do with it.

4. we dont like physical affection.

5. we're the tannest ones in the family

6. we have patience issues

7. we are very loud.

8. we both love to take pictures.

My stormie girl. you are my shining light. without you my world would be dark. it feels my heart with lovelovelove to see my dreams and wishes for you come true. happiest 4th birthday princess.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

raise your hand if... {hawaii family blog}

raise your hand if you're GRATEFUL for Costco Chicken.....


it's perfectly tasting. perfectly priced. perfectly crafted. GEEEZZZZ it's so good it even has it's own freakin' facebook fan page. look at that sexy bird.

Monday, November 8, 2010

my favorite color is... {hawaii photography blog}

my favorite color is orange so i was GRATEFUL when i heart faces selected ORANGE as their theme for this weeks challenge!

I chose to use of my favorite photo of stormie eating carrots for the first time! Hard to believe my little princess will be 4 soon!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

i never blog on weekends... {hawaii gratitude blog}

i never blog on weekends. BUT after watching this video i thought as my friends, you needed to see it. so you too can learn what i just did. i am not a mormon, but the message being shared is a human message. there are so many things in this video i wanna remember...remember to live. love. and Be GRATEFUL.

if you dont already read NieNies Blog, your missing out.

Friday, November 5, 2010

i always dream of moving... {hawaii lifestyle blog}

i always dream of moving to the mainland where it's cheaper. and where there are actually other seasons besides SUMMER...BUT i am GRATEFUL for this place i call home. this rock in the middle of the pacific and the MANY things that are unique to this place.

* every person here having at least 3 ethnicities that make them up
* having our own language, you can tell who is from here by how well they speak pidgin. **if you can translate this words in the photo - you are LOCAL**
* the ability to wear slippahs (NOT FLIP FLOPS) 365 days a year
* feeling cold when the temperature drops to 73 degrees
* being able to flash anyone a shaka and get a shaka in return....


Thursday, November 4, 2010

because i am an ungrateful... {hawaii motherhood blog}

because i am an ungrateful creature, i am gonna blog daily about something i am grateful for (november only). today's post is easy because i know exactly what i'm grateful for...


i just can't bring myself to get rid of my last pair of maternity shorts. they are so damn comfortable. sure my kid is 32 now, but who cares? ok for the record he's only 2...maybe 2 and a half...he'll be 3 next month if your counting.

i dont know whats taking me so long...UUUMMMM actually i do. they are comfortable as hell. they whisper in your ear *keep eating and i'll still fit*

how come women have a hard time parting with maternity pants/shorts? do you still have yours?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

unfortunately my guy didnt... {hawaii lifestyle blog}

unfortunately my guy didnt win the election yesterday, but i'm not bitter....ok mabye a bit.

politics in hawaii pretty different from the mainland. take for example the way our candidates campaign...walking door to door AND standing on the side of the road and throwing shakas. i really did try to get a picture for you but i almost crashed my car TWICE, so if you wanna see what i'm talking about - go here!

on the other hand, i did receive some produce from a candidate running for State Representative. ONLY IN HAWAII...

what about where you are things unique there?

Monday, November 1, 2010

i love when bloggers... {hawaii marriage blog}

i love when bloggers are honest with themselves. i love it when bloggers put who they are, at the core, out there. like Matt. i am actually a reader of his wifes blog and found him that way. they recently got married and were experiencing some issues with connecting because of their busy schedules.

his post reminded me of the best piece of marriage advice i ever received . it was given to me before my wedding by my former boss who had been married for 44 years. he said....

Once you stop working on your marriage, your marriage will stop working.

that simple people. love your husband/wife on purpose. i know what i'm talking about. sometimes i get caught up in my 3 crazies that i need to focus myself and remember that mike is not my hired assistant. but. my. husband. the love of my life. so. with that said. go and work on your marriage. pronto.

What is the best piece of marriage advice you ever received?

Friday, October 29, 2010

i was having an anxiety attack... {hawaii foster parent blog}

i was having an anxiety attack because baby j's worker called to see if she could come by to *discuss some stuff* - YIKES. i immediately went to dark thoughts of them taking him today! i know highly unlikely BUT i was scared. she instead came to ensure that my husband and i were still on board to want to adopt him, if his birth mothers rights are terminated. our answer: YES.

we go to court in December, which i'm not that confident about but she is, so i'm riding on her confidence.

i can't wait till we're off the foster care roller coaster - i'm never riding it again. yes i am. no i'm not. yes i am. no i'm not. yes i am.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

today i watched Oprah... {hawaii mommy blogger}

today i watched oprah. she featured the story of a couple that lost their 3 young children in a car accident - AT THE SAME TIME. there was no humanly way possible for me to stop my crying. my heart aches for them. hurts for them.

i complain that my kids are crazy. they are. but i would love to live this crazy life a million days than to never have lived it at all.

my 3 crazies.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

when i am at the farm... {hawaii lifestyle blog}

when i am at the farm, i feel like i am in a different world.

there is no hate. there is no anger. there is no waste. there is only learning. love. acceptance. sharing. respect.

my kids know this feeling. they beg me to go there ALL the time.

they know that at the farm - there is no limit to learning. exploring. touching.

peaceful. rest. connection with mother earth.

and to sweeten the deal...after a hard days work - you leave with yummy loot.

Monday, October 25, 2010

my handsome boy and i... {hawaii Motherhood Blog}

my handsome boy and i joined his tiny tot class at the Aloun Farm for the pumpkin patch! we had such a great time. I was so blessed to get some alone time with him!

Friday, October 22, 2010

FIX IT FRIDAY {hawaii photography blog}

YAAYY for fix it friday over at i heart faces!!

Here is the ORIGINAL


Wednesday, October 20, 2010

after three little boys...

after three little boys my friend Kassandra has added a princess to her ohana. She is such a beauty and i was so so happy to snap a photo of her sleeping soundly. congratulations on your princess!!


Tuesday, October 19, 2010

last week marked baby...

last week marked baby j's 1 year anniversary in foster care. not sure if anniversary is the correct word. it almost makes it sound joyous. it marked his one year with our family. in one year nothing has changed. we're still waiting. and waiting. waiting for the foster care system to make a move. waiting for a birth mother to make a move. waiting. in fact, the title of the blog should have been *one year in foster care will get you NO WHERE*

when my friends were going through tuff times last week, it got me scared. i am in too far now. there is no turning back. if we lose him. we lose a piece of us.

oh baby j. will you stay with me forever.

Friday, October 15, 2010

FIX IT FRIDAY {hawaii photography blog}

i heart faces has their weekly editing challenge posted. Go check out some of their great entries...
Here is my try at this weeks edit.